Hi All
So after all my good work it all fell apart yesterday in spectacular fashion - I can only say that whilst I spent Monday contemplating and Tuesday following up the good work on Wednesday I did not stop eating from the moment I filled my car with petrol on the way to work until just before I collected Toby from band practise at 9pm, I shoved (a good description!) chocolate, cake and other unnecessary crap down my throat with such speed that it didn't hit the sides - I really think I ate it all (& there was lots of it) so fast I didn't even taste it :((
The overwhelming result was that I felt disgusted with myself last night, spent more time in the loo than usual, and was unbelievably bloated this morning - STUPID, STUPID GIRL
Today, however & thankfully, is a new day and I have been outstanding - well I'll need to be if I don't want to put on weight again this week.
I started off with mixed fruit and natural yoghurt for breakfast with two big glasses of water. Then off I went into town for a Networking Seminar - I took a bottle of water with me to drink on the tube but otherwise knew I'd have to be really careful and I was!!
I successfully swerved the pastries and giant cookies served with coffee - and there were lots of breaks - but in truth it wasn't difficult because I focused my memory on how disgusted I'd felt yesterday and hey presto they just didn't seem that appealing. Interestingly I was very hungry all day which always seems to happen after I've given myself a massive sugar rush.
Lunch was a sit down affair but was able to make good choices as the started was fruit, main was fish or pasta. I had fish which was steamed with a very thin buttery sauce so I just had the fish and it was served with new potatoes, beans and roasted tomatoes. I'm sure there was butter on the veg but not much. I didn't have dessert although the choice was lovely (choc mousse/choc cheesecake/passion fruit tart) - I hadn't earned it!!!
Had coffee during the afternoon and probably drank a litre of water during the day.
Walked from the hotel back to the tube (it really was a lovely sunny day) & then back to Dom's school to watch his A level drama performance - he did really well but it is incredibly nerve-wracking to watch him and his friends when you know how important it is. However, it left me with that 'very proud mummy' feeling that makes all the aggro worthwhile :0))
Dinner tonight was steak with brussels and broccoli and more drink - I'm also very thirsty after a full on binge - so overall its been a much better 'diet' day.
I was feeling very 'down' about it but made a decision not to go into 'sod' it mode - it is after all only one day. I also think that knowing I may not get to my morning group next week as my washing machine is broken and the engineer is coming 'sometime on monday' (grrrrrrrrr!) contributed to my mental meltdown - bit like when someone tells Toby he's missing lessons & that means he doesn't have to do his homework!!
So that's it for today.
Tomorrow will be gym, deli, fruit shopping and then a long session in the Pinner launderette (ugh).
Think of me doing all that washing :)
Lxx
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