Evening All :)
Thought you'd be interested in my progress this week as I seem to be on a much better track & I like to share my positivity with you - especially as you are compelled to share my stupidity too!!
I went to weigh on Monday morning & I'd put on 1.5lbs :(
Although I knew I'd faltered (to put it mildly) last week, I had hoped that my control at other times would compensate - but it wasn't to be. As they say 'if you can't do the time you shouldn't do the crime'!! - I realise it's not usually applied to dieting but you know what I mean.
Anyway, my class was really motivating and I got some good recipe ideas - including a SW friendly rice pudding which I'm going to try this week as I won the pudding rice in the raffle :)
Whilst in class I got a text from a friend who I hadn't seen for ages - I had suggested we met for coffee but she suggested I came over and went with her to walk her dog. You wouldn't believe the excuses I was inventing, because my lazy gene was working very hard to thwart this despite the fact that (for various reasons) I really wanted to see her.
Anyway, despite all this, I quickly popped in to M&S to top up my cherry and blackberry supply (essentials!), changed Toby's school trousers for a bigger size and bought him some school shirts (how exciting my day's off are!), and then went home to collect my coat.
So, off I went for our walk - we were out for about 90 mins & she's a very quick walker!! but I really enjoyed it - so much better for me than my usual post-diet class binge.
Also, we had a chat about why we over-eat. She's done a course on hypnotherapy to aide dieting recently so it was really interesting.
To sum up, when we overeat we are 'filling a hole' - usually an emotional one - resulting from something that's happened somewhere in our lives. It doesn't have to be anything specific but it is something that, if you are really honest with yourself, still troubles you. In my case, I know what my 'hole' is and it has troubled me all my life and, in truth, probably always will. In most cases (and certainly in mine) it is coupled with low self esteem. Interestingly, I have no idea where that comes from!! but I can tell you that throughout my teenage years I always thought I was, too tall, too fat, too flat chested & too unattractive to be appealing to boys :( I'm sure this was purely perception because although I wasn't about to rival Cindy Crawford, I also wasn't 'paper bag' material!!
When I look back at photos, I'm sure that this was mostly to do with my height - for any readers that don't know me in real life, I'm over 6ft tall and have been since I was 12. In my world, not only is that tall for a girl but I towered over most of the boys I knew too & most of the tall ones went out with really short girls!! Also I wore glasses through my early teenage years & in those days the NHS had particularly grim frames to offer & it didn't help with my confidence issues.
In a nutshell, all this goes back a long way & mostly I shunt it to the back of my mind (don't we all). My friend (oh wise woman) has made me think - and that's what friends are for. She also said some lovely things about me, which I also appreciated - but why do we always find compliments to hard to accept???
Anyway, back to Monday afternoon, after the walk we went back to hers for a cup of tea (I had a pear, she had a grapefruit - so proud) and a breather (I needed it after such a long walk & all that deep conversation!), we went to Watford for a quick shop.
Afterwards, I went home, via the butcher, with a lot to think about but a real sense of achievement.
I had roast breast of lamb for dinner with asparagus broccoli & rice (cooked in chicken stock).
Later, I had a coffee and fancied a treat so I had two 'jammy dodgers' - yummy and I enjoyed them as I'd not had anything else sugary all day - quite a triumph for Monday.
Today, I started my day still full of enthusiasm (really hope it lasts all week), and had 2 Weetabix, ss milk and a some blackberries plus a couple of glasses of squash - I was really thirsty.
I was at a full day meeting today & lunch was provided but I just knew it would be ok - and it was :)
I treated myself to a Costa Americano at the council chamber (highly subsidised - a Medio was £1.20!!) and drank water during the morning session.
We had lunch in the councillors dining room and although there were lots of 'naughty' possibilities I had tuna salad from the salad bar followed by an orange - needed a lot of self discipline here as everyone else had bread & butter pudding with custard (and why wouldn't you?).
I drove home after the meeting and had a cup of coffee and some fruit - did some work, had a very long call with a colleague (so lucky I work with such nice people) & then went to collect Dom from school & Tobz from bus-stop. Such a wonderful mother!!
Dinner was leftover lamb, meatballs in tomato sauce, rice, broccoli & brussels followed by some cherries, all washed down with Tesco Sparkling water grapefruit flavour (delish!!).
I think that's all I have to tell you this evening - probably more than enough for now :)
Hope you are having a good evening.
Love
Lxx
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