Day 4 (Plus end of day 3!!)

So yesterday was very busy & then when I tried to finish my blog we had no internet at home - not unusual but still irritating :(

Still, as far as yesterday's food goes -I came back from my meeting & ate lunch as well as a big plate of yummy english strawberries (they really are the best!) & ff nat yog. Drank coffee & loads of water (2L in all yesterday). Worked hard yesterday afternoon & realised that for the first time in ages I didn't feel like I needed a snooze - sounds ridiculous because I obviously resist the urge but I find myself very unproductive in the afternoon. Better eating habits - time will tell?

Very hectic when I got home from work as Dom needed testing (Philosophy AS level as we speak) & Tobz needed taking & collecting from JLGB - Wed evening is very hectic chez Olins! I also realised I was thirsty not hungry so had a banana at some point but nothing else - very rare!

So today is day 4.

Breakfast was a big glass of water, 28g Minibix (choc ones - 11 makes up 28g) with rasberries & my milk allowance & I've just eaten a peach & having my first Nespresso of the day in the office.

I was trying to think back to when I did the Cambridge Diet & what it was in my head that meant I kept going on such a restrictive regime (without cheating) for almost a year. I think it was two things - fabulous consultant (Gayle) and the fact that everyone at work/family/friends knew I was doing it. Also that I was prepared to talk openly about it & so if I wasn't following though EVERYONE would know. It was also quite a traumatic (bit dramatic - maybe difficult would be better) year in my life. My Booba died - she was in her 90s but we are a close family and was my last grandparent so it was very sad for me. Then two months later A's grandma died & then started a major family disaster (not over-stated) that lasts to this day and is unlikely to be resolved. It caused us great pain & continues to do so - it was so unlike anything that had ever (or would ever) happen in my family that I found it incomprehensible. In the same year we moved house too - best thing we ever did although it was our third move in six years so didn't feel like it at the time!
BUT throughout all that I continued to live on four sachets of soup/shakes & the odd bar. I did not gobble chocolate in mega quantities at alarming speed, eat massive sandwiches & speed it gorgeous M&S choc cookies (binge food of choice) IN SECRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The interesting thing is that I think the outlet of the restrictive diet plus Gayle to talk too was my me time & kept me going! The other thing that kept me going was my fab sister who is always there for support as well as appropriate criticism.

Introspection over for now.........must do some work. Have a good day.
Lx