First weigh-in - oh my word!!

Evening all

So I did it............
I went back to SW this morning and weighed in.
It was truly awful - I felt like a great big fat failure all 19st 5lbs of me :-(
My BMI is up to 35.8 and I'm the heaviest I've been for many years.
In my more sensible moments I knew this but it still is shocking to see it written down on paper and I sure hope it will give me the incentive to buckle down and lose these useless fat cells.

My first target is to lose 10% of my body weight to take me down to 17st 6.5lbs - so just under 2st to lose - & then I'll give myself a new target but that's a big enough challenge for now.

I felt really miserable this morning but I have to say that I felt such a warm welcome this morning that it does help & it will encourage me to go back next week :-)

I've been good today - not one morsel of chocolate has passed my lips. I had fruit during the day & tonight I've had turkey with a jacket potato & broccoli followed by some cherries that I'm noshing whilst I type.
Lot's of water, sf squash & black coffee during the day too.

Tonight I'm going to read through my SW literature and try to go into 'I've never done it before' mode to give myself the best possible start to the week.
It will be hard because the stresses aren't going away soon but if I take food to work this week instead of buying sandwiches and cake/chocolate from the food vans that stop outside the office - it's got to be better for me hasn't it????

I didn't have time to shop today so I'll have to try & do that tomorrow or do an internet shop so I have the 'right' foods in the house so that any 'crises' that will inevitably materialise this week don't turn into excuses for a 'crap binge' - or if they do the available 'crap' will be limited.

Anyway, I have an empty house now so I'm going to catch up on 'Chicago Fire' - just love a fireman drama!!

Night all
Lxx