Because if I don't that only leaves me to blame!!!
As regular readers will be aware I haven't blogged since Monday when I was determined to follow the plan 'to the letter' (was what I wrote) - well I can only say life got in the way this week & as Craig Revel-Horwood (Strictly viewers will understand) would say 'Dahling it's been a disahster!!!'
Mum got taken in to hospital suddenly on Tuesday as the consultant felt he needed to resolve her heart issues swiftly & so he did - for the squeamish amongst you I won't go into all the details, but suffice to say she had a couple of very unpleasant procedures which did work & so she now has a heart that is beating in normal sinus rhythm (if slightly slowly). This is better than the excessively fast rate it was at. She came home from hospital on Friday night and is making steady progress at home.
She was in The London Independent & her treatment was top class - however it was a four hour round trip by car or 90 mins on three different tube lines so not the most convenient for me & I decided to use this as an excuse to stop eating proper meals but instead eat my body weight (& my sisters!) in chocolate, sandwiches, milkshakes etc because I could eat/drink these things in the car - I even drank the sugary Volvic instead of plain water or the sugar-free sort = stupid girl :(
I am beating myself up because I deserve it & sometimes you just need to be told. WHEN WILL I LEARN???
I'm so scared about the damage I might have done I haven't dared weigh myself - a really bad sign.
Also I'm taking mum for a blood test in the morning & then dad for a chest x-ray (it's all go!!) in preparation for his check up following pneumonia, so I can't get to my SW class in the morning.
This means I have to go in the evening & I'm not sure I can face it - but I'll see cos if I don't I suspect things will deteriorate again as I'm more in control today.
Hope all goes well with you - and that you might be learning from my bad habits better than me!
Lxx
Sorry to hear your mum's been poorly and I wish her well - what a worry for you. Don't beat yourself up about eating what you can when you can - you haven't had a second to yourself and I don't blame you for one second! (says she who has just had a large dollop of tirasimu!) Lots of love x
ReplyDeleteThanks Karen - I love tiramisu :0)
ReplyDeleteI'm sure I'll get back on track eventually just can't help being disappointed that I can't kick the habits of my lifetime.